Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Chris said...

Dear God,

My heart is lost and just can't seem to find my way back to present and future options. You see, I went through a break up with my girlfriend about 6-7 months ago and I just can't seem to move on. I know you would tell me to let go of the past and look for new options, but I just can't. My mind tells me that moving on is best, but my heart tells me she is the one. I don't know anymore if she is the one; all I know is she is the only one I care to be with.

I've tried going forward with dating and flirting with other girls, but the truth is, I just feel indifferent about them. I'm starting not to care about love anymore, and care more about superficial things in life. When my relationship ended with her, my ability to love another died as well. I would have done anything to have one last chance to work on things with her, but I guess that may not be written in my fate.

She was not just any girl, she was the only one I have ever unconditionally loved. Her and I were also technically engaged. What I mean by that is, the engagement ring was absent until I saved up enough to make it official.

I'm rambling on too much; please, just help me find peace in my heart, mind and soul.


Answer from God through Carley:

"You will have peace when you forgive yourself for your part in what happened. Forgiveness is an interesting thing. If forgiveness is withheld, it actually harms you for withholding it. Even if you are unable to find the "thing" for which you are punishing yourself, come to me in prayer or meditation and ask me to take the pain away as it clearly does not serve you. Whenever you give something painful to me because you no longer need to suffer with it, you're telling me that you've learned and will not make that mistake - even if it was the mistake of another that injured you."

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