Saturday, November 28, 2009

Anora said...

Dearest God,

Am 29 and as yet, still not settled in life by any means. I am a very talented and well qualified person, but I have no job. I was married to a man who will never love me and now am in love with a man who will never marry me. All I want is someone to love and to hold for the rest of my life. I feel so lonely and lost.

The only light in my life is my 3 year old daughter. My parents helped me raise her. And she's such a delightful and beautiful little girl. Brilliant, intelligent, smart, creative, highly observant and very expressive with her love. She's the only thing that gives meaning to my life.

Her love and the process of caring for her has kept me sane all this while, even through the really rough ride I have had, the past few years.

I was quite lucky to come out alive, from the hands of an abusive husband who was never there for me or my baby. And the only other relationship I have ever had is with another guy who after a year of living together has made it very clear that he can't tell his folks about marrying a lady with a child.

Right now am going through a very bad time and am really low. I was invited to join a company in a high post, but due to certain ill-luck, I lost that job just weeks into it. So much of aspirations rest on me... and I feel like a loser, like a sinking ship. I feel like a failure, as I have not been able to achieve any of my dreams.

O God, is there light for me at the end of this tunnel? I have had thoughts of ending it all. But am no coward to shy away from living. Please help me out God. I need you.

Answer from God through Carley:

"When you are unable to achieve your dreams, re-examine your dreams. Perhaps take smaller achievable steps before you learn to run. You have a daughter who is the light in your life, become the light in her life. Step up to your potential and be the woman she believes you to be. Dream for you and your daughter and achieve those dreams because she is counting on you to do so and to show her how it's done.

You cannot be happy in a love relationship until you are happy outside of one. Pick men to be with who fully embrace the light in your life - as you two are one.

You are defined by the choices you make. What do your choices say about you? What do you want the world to know about you? How will you tell the world who you are and what you care about? I am always right here. All you need to do is ask for help and move in some way toward what it is you seek paying very close attention to the little things that come your way."

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