Tuesday, August 10, 2010

1715 said...

Hi God,

Its been 2 years since I had written you seriously about it. We still haven’t made any progress. I am still waiting. And I don’t know if he will come back or not. I just know Baba wont let me down.

I want to admit everything to you. I have seen myself hating you cursing you begging you breaking down infront of you and I still dont have an answer. Its probably because I stayed away from you. I know I did. I was lost somewhere. I did lose myself and I am trying to figure out why I let that happen.

I love one guy with all my heart but I let everything happen with someone else. I did admit it to him and bless him, he forgave me. I will be ever grateful to him for that but now you know I don’t have much time to wait.

My parents want to fix my marriage in a year’s or two’s time. I cant deny them but at the same time I cant be somebody else’s wife. The only person with whom I want to get married to is he else I am ready to come to you. For the past 7 years, I have loved him and just him. We will be together or not is upto Baba.

I am trying to reconnect to you. Please give me the strength to endure whatever is decided by him or my father. I wont question you about it but will only pray to give me more strength. And I am glad that I love a person with such depth.

I don’t know what I am trying to ask you here but if you just reply soon, I will really appreciate it. And whatever else, I have to say, I will talk to you. Please god, give me a quick reply. I just hope its not too late. And please let me know if he has moved on and he Is truly happy with someone else. I will go away from his life.

Thankyou God. Please take care of my family and tell me a way where I can try to heal people with your light.

Answer from God through Carley:

"I hear your every word and I understand your every emotion.  When you decide to resist all but what you want, you don't allow anything different to come to you.  You get to choose everything you do, say and feel and yet you can only control your free will.  When you accept this fact, so much more is able to come to you.  A wall against change only holds you exactly where you are.  Allowing change allows you to move forward.    I love you beyond measure.   I always have and I always will."

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