Saturday, December 18, 2010

Anonymous said...

God,

If you see that I'm in so much pain, why won't you answer me? I pray every night that you hear me but you never respond. My faith in you dies everyday. I don't know what to do. All I want to do is die. I feel there is no purpose for me on earth but to be an mosquito, living off others lives. I can't do it anymore. The guilt inside is overcoming my soul. I've tried so hard to forget but i can't. And then this constant pain of not being loved by others just makes it worse. I seem happy on the outside but when I lay down in my bed at night, I can't help but to cry. Please, answer me or just take my life. If I died this very second, I would die with a smile. I don't think 17 year olds should be like this.

Answer from God through Carley:

"I do not take lives, and even if I did I would interrupt our agreement for the experiences that you will have in this life.  I gave you free will and with that gift you get to choose how you feel, how you think and how you react to every situation.  The purpose of our agreement is so that you will understand everything eventually from personal or near-personal experience.  If you were to give up on our agreement now, the only thing that would change is your form.  Our agreement remains in place until it is completed in a single life or in many lives.

No matter what you think, I do hear you and I do answer you, and I'm answering you again now in this format.  No purpose?  You can have any purpose at all!  Anything that you truly love to do can be your purpose.  If you haven't discovered it yet, don't worry about it but instead get out there and try new things.  No matter how big your dream is, there will always be a way for you to do it.  Instead of lying in your bed at night and crying, plan your tomorrow instead.  What will you do?  With whom will you do it?  How will you create your next adventure?

Guilt?  Perhaps it's time to forgive yourself, if you truly believe that there is something to feel guilt about.  Yesterdays cannot be undone, but the really exciting part is that every moment offers a new beginning.  Please stop wasting your moments thinking that you have no choices.  Ask me for help in anything you seek that is based in love and know that you will have my help.  If ever you feel disconnected from me again put your hand upon your heart and feel me, beating inside your chest."

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